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My hope is to relay a message of my personal experience through the most incredible journey of my life, RECOVERY. My t-shirt line, "DIS" is made for friends and will display my journey to gain a higher power, words that get me by and my crazy character that always has something to say!
My name is Daniella, born an only child (the plans changed at 32 when I got sober) in Van Nuys, California. I was already very blessed at a young age and was able to pursue any dream that ever crossed my mind and horses was my passion. I was known for my blond hair and my paint horse, "Tiowa". Horses were my escape.
Getting into high school, I was becoming more uncomfortable in my skin and had nowhere to turn but horses and eventually...drugs and alcohol. My parents who were working in the television industry, traveled all over the world and would do anything to try to make me happy. They couldn't figure out why I was always so unhappy.
I don't think anything filled my heart like those horses did. After becoming a stunt actress, publicist for a very prestigious firm, Vice President at "legendary starmaker", Jay Bernesteins Production Company.To then only eventually lose it all from addiction... I fell hard. I ravaged around Hollywood, hanging with all the stars and directors as I fit there like a glove. My addiction went on for another 15 years...
One fatal day, I was in the shower and was in pain falling to the ground, I mustered enough strength to get to the phone to dial 911. Ironically, 9-11-2006 would become my sobriety date! I was dying inside, really dying. I finally put my body through enough hell puncturing a hole through my stomach lining. I was rushed into an emergency surgery to clean my insides from becoming septic and suture up my stomach lining then to lie in the hospital for 2 weeks with only 2 visitors, my parents. I never felt so alone in my life... I have never taken a drink or a drug since.
I have dedicated my life to helping others who struggle with the same problems. This has been the most rewarding thing for me. When I got into recovery they told me to pray. I never had a god and really couldn't understand what to pray to? I moved back with my parents and on their horse ranch, I attempted to just pray to these white horses that were in a valley across the vineyards. Every time I would pray they would come...I made these horses my higher power. They started to come less and less but I found it within me to start to pray without them. I had a premonition one night that my cat would disappear and that I would never see her again. Strangely, I ended up seeing the movie, "Premonition" that night, got home and she had vanished. (Truly gifted with intuition I might say!!) I was devestated and in awe that I had been given a message that she would be gone and had a movie to explain what this might mean. The next day, I cried and cried asking my higher power to please bring my kitty back proclaiming I would do anything to have her back. I went outside and there were those white horses, back where they would be when I needed them the most. I knew at this moment there was something more powerful than me and this was a message that I was going to be okay whether I got her back or not.
FOR THE FIRST TIME HAD HOPE!! I HAVE BEEN ROCKING EVER SINCE!! XOXOX! GOD BLESS YOU ALL! MORE OF MY STORY TO COME CAUSE IT WASNT THAT EASY! XOXO THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT!